Thursday, January 31, 2013

A Blank Page

When Ernest Hemingway was asked the most frightening thing he had ever encountered, the author replied:
"A blank sheet of paper."


Looking for the quote/anecdote above was an interesting experiment in human nature through the inimitable tool that is Google Suggestions. I had the start of it wrong, of course, so as I typed into the Search bar:
"There is nothing more terrifying than"

Google's vast knowledge banks helped to fill in my request with the requests that others had apparently made:

"There is nothing more terrifying than ignorance in action."
"There is nothing more terrifying than an angry sidehill dodger."*
"There is nothing more terrifying than a canoe."

*A "sidehill dodger" or "sidehill gouger" is apparently a folklore creature noted for having "adapted to living on hillsides by having legs on one side of their body shorter than the legs on the opposite side." Thanks, Google.

So that settles that, then.
But before I learned about the terrifying nature of Sidehill Gougers - or, bafflingly, canoes - I was pondering the truth of Ernest Hemingway's statement. A blank sheet of paper, says the celebrated novelist, is the most frightening thing on the block.
I think, if I may put words into Mr. Hemingway's mouth, that what he was referring to was the terror that arises necessarily from the act of creation. When you look at a blank page - or at a canvas, or at the first slide of a PowerPoint document, or even at your beautiful newborn child on the first day home alone with her - you know that you have an entire world to create, you know that you have an infinitely complex job ahead of you, you know that everything that follows must come from within you...

And what the heck are you supposed to do first?
Where do you begin? And how? 
What if it goes wrong? How long will it take me to recognize that there's a problem? Can I trust myself enough to invest in this creation? Can I see it through? Will I fail somewhere along the way?

I've been feeling this fear beginning my new ministry in Lafayette. I suspect that some members of the church here feel it, too. They have been working to create this new kind of church - FCC SouthSide @ Walt's Other Pub, if you didn't know! - for years, and now that it has launched, and now that there is a minister involved, we all have to live up to the dream.

We have to create something out of nothing, and that is surely more terrifying than a Sidehill Dodger.

Except, I seem to remember another story about creating something out of nothing. About creatio ex nihilo, as my Latin-speaking and doctrinally-minded readers will remember. I seem to remember a story about the One Who Created. Moreover, a story about the One Who Creates, Who is creating still. 

God's creative acts didn't end on the seventh day. God continues to create, to shape, to poke-prod-nudge-and-pull. God uses all sorts of things for this purpose - the sun rises and the rain falls, and consequently life is created and sustained. Animals and people are drawn to one another, and consequently life is created and sustained. 
Sometimes, people powered by love from within and Love From Above are able to live out that love in their lives, to provide care and hospitality and welcome to the rest of creation, and consequently, life is created and sustained.

We are never alone in this task of creation, because the original Creator is by our sides and toiling with us. Indeed, each day we join God in creating this great collaborative work called The World. Take comfort and strength in that knowledge, and create within The World ever more joy and beauty. With God as your partner, you can conquer the fear of the blank page, and concentrate on more pressing matters.

Painting of a Sidehill Gouger, Walter Bender, 1972.
Used under Creative Commons Attributions 3.0 License.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Singing Skies


                #1 – I’m a nerd for the church calendar. I really am. You know that the church calendar runs all year, right? Yeah, it’s more than Christmas and Easter. Most people are familiar with Advent, the season that leads up to Christmas. And most people are familiar with Lent, the time that starts with Mardi Gras and ends with Easter. But there’s a whole calendar to fill in the gaps. There’s Christmastide and Eastertide, Epiphany Season, there’s the oh-so-boring­-sounding Ordinary Time. Mixed all up in there you’ll find feast days – this past Friday was the Conversion of Paul day, and next Saturday will be the Feast of the Presentation. But going along with the church calendar is the lectionary, a set of Bible readings that go along with every Sunday and every holiday in the church year. I like the lectionary – I don’t always preach from it, but it’s always an interesting perspective on the conversation that happens between the books of the Bible, and how that conversation takes a new shape every time we read it.
                #2 – The second thing you’ll notice about me is that my most basic understanding of God – the most central way I understand who and what God is – is as creator, as parent, as source of all things. I tend to believe that every aspect of what God is and what God does (guidance, love, wisdom), all these pieces of the Thing We Call God rise out of this basic understanding of God as the Maker.
                So as I was looking through the church calendar, and the lectionary readings for last week, it seemed just plain perfect that I came across Psalm number 19. Take a look at it below the post. Or Google it. Or crack open a dusty ol’ Bible. Whatevs. I’ll wait.
                A few nights ago I happened to catch sight of the stars. I was taking the trash out, and I happened to be thinking about my sermon for today, and the text that I just read you, and I caught sight of the stars. Now, there’s a lot to notice about the starry sky – it’s fascinating, knowing that these little pinpricks of light are burning balls of gas farther away than I could imagine. It’s beautiful and impressive and magnificent, looking up at this night sky. But what I noticed this particular time was the constellation Orion. You know Orion – the one with the three stars in a row that’s supposed to be the belt of the great hunter. What I realized is that people, human beings, have always heard our stories sung from the skies. Think of our constellations, the stories that they have told for thousands of years. You have the family of the Greek hero Perseus – Andromeda and Cassiopeia; you’ve got Hercules, and Orion, the two great hunters. You’ve got all the signs of the Zodiac. These images, these stories… once upon a time, these stories helped people define who they were. What they believed, and how their lives were ordered.
                I suppose for many of us, it’s not quite as literal as that. If you follow astrology or horoscopes, you still may see your story written dramatically in the heavens. But for most people today, it’s a little more vague. But our stories are still there.
                When you look into the sky, what do you see? At night, you may see pinpricks of light, telling the stories of burning stars, the stories of the universe churning along, growing and progressing. In the day, you may see clouds covering the sky – the stories of our ecosystem, as blessed water falls from the sky to rejuvenate life, then once it’s released from life it rises to the sky to start it all over. You may see the endless blue expanse – the sky, in case you didn’t know, the sky isn’t truly blue; the blue sky is a trick that our eyes play in response to the atmosphere scattering sunlight around everywhere.
                How’s that for a story from the sky? The thing’s only blue because your eyes make it blue; you and the sky collaborate on a piece of art, and only you see the sky in exactly the way you do. How intimate that is, how personal and unique!
                The thing is, the universe tells stories, and they’re stories about all of us, stories for all of us. And one story that the universe can’t help but tell is the story of God. By its very existence, by its natural laws and natural order, the universe tells us the story of the One who created it.
                That’s what the writer of the Psalm that we read today is thinking about. The Psalm-writer is seeing the natural, ordered universe and hearing it sing a story of Creation, a hymn to the Creator. Now, it’s not very scientific – depending on how you read the text, it sorta sounds like the Psalm is saying that the sun revolves around the earth, and we know that’s not true. But it’s not a science lesson. The Bible isn’t a science book. Psalm 19 is not a lecture.
                Psalm 19 is a poem.
                Lots of the Psalms are poems, and this one is no different. In a way, the very fact that it’s a poem is another example of the universe telling stories – how words composed by people and heard by people can be more beautiful than people ever realize. In reality, Psalm 19 breaks apart into three pieces – two poems and a prayer.
                The first poem, verses 1-6, discuss what we’ve already talked about – the sacred story of God the Creator that the Universe sings to us. The second poem, in verses 7-11, has a slightly different take on things. “The Torah – the Law – of the Lord is perfect… the commands of the Lord are radiant, giving light to the eyes… The ordinances of the Lord are sure and altogether righteous; for they are more precious than loads of pure gold, and sweeter than honey straight from the honeycomb.”
                Now there’s something you don’t hear everyday – a poem praising laws. A poem that lifts up laws as perfect, righteous, precious, sweet, even.
                I’ll admit – those verses about the law make me a little bit uncomfortable. Because as much as the Psalm says “The Laws of the Lord are perfect, reviving the soul,” I know of times when those same laws have been used to oppress people, when people have decided to take the work of judgment into their own hands and punish or ostracize Breakers of God’s Laws.  I’m sure we’ve all seen that done, and we know that it’s not who we want to be as God-people. This section makes me a little bit uncomfortable, because as much as the Psalm says “The precepts of the Lord are right, giving joy to the heart,” I know and you know of times when people are so certain that they know what God wants – based on the laws and precepts of the Bible – that people remove joy from their hearts, remove it from their vocabulary entirely.
                But what we have to remember about the Laws of the Bible – what we have to remember about the whole big collection of “Do-This-Don’t-Do-That” in the pages of Scripture – is that they’re not a list of individual behaviors that are supposed to be rewarded or punished. Taken all together, they’re a statement of identity. If you take a look at the Bible – if you take a look at each individual book, at all of them grouped up together in their various  sections – then you get the overwhelming sense that this is not a book of laws, not like we understand them.
                It’s a book of stories. It’s the book of our stories, those of us who claim them. They were once the stories of a small clan of Middle-Eastern nomads, but they have grown and evolved and been reshaped and they have shaped us.
                Sure, there are lots of places in Scripture that are pretty clearly rulebooks, and I’m not going to stand here and tell you that everything in those books resembling a law or a commandment is right and perfect. It’s just not true. Some of them are ritual laws for a system of rituals that doesn’t exist anymore. Some of them are medical or scientific laws based on outdated scientific knowledge, and they don’t even make sense anymore. And some of them are rules written by well-meaning people from a different time and a different culture, and today in this place they cause more pain than they do joy.
                But taken as a whole, this thing – this Torah – this Bible – this set of laws and set of stories? It tells the story of a God who came first, of a God who created all of this, of a God who loves all of this, and of a God who will complete all of this in the coming Kingdom. After all, in the story of Creation, in Genesis, after God creates each thing – after God creates the light and the skies, after God creates the animals and plants, after God creates humankind – what does God do? God calls it good.
                Psalm 19 is a three-parter. In part 1, the Psalm-writer speaks of the stories found in the skies. He says that these stories point to God, using the generic Hebrew word for any ol’ God, for anything divine. In part 2, the Psalm-writer speaks of the stories of Scripture, says that these stories point to Yahweh and to our dealings with Yahweh, and he gets more specific by using God’s proper name – these stories, about this God, for you specifically.
Both parts, 1 and 2, deal with “law”, in their own ways – natural laws and the stories of Scripture.  In this way, the Psalm-writer is saying simply – “God sets the proper path for all things”
But there is a tension between the two, and in this tension there is beauty – because part of the natural world is the will of humanity, the ability to decide and discern, our ability to learn and to grow and to flow through this world and eventually know something. What do you know? What do I know?
I know that the sun rises in the east and sets in the west. I know that water boils at 212 degrees. Natural laws, the universe telling us that there is order; and we are still learning them, every day, we are learning more of the order of this Creation – we just learned about the Higgs-Boson, that thing that turns energy into stuff, and we’re only starting to understand how gravity works – “Day after day the universe pours out words, night after night it reveals knowledge.”
What do you know? What do I know? I know that whether it took 6 days or 13.7 billion years, God is responsible for this place that we call home. I know that respect and care for all people, for all life, for all things is part of our duty to God and to this world where God placed us. I know that the words of the Scriptures, the words of the prophets, the words of Jesus Christ and all the saints point with one big finger towards the path of love.
And that’s why, perfect or imperfect and this universe may be, and perfect or imperfect as the words of the Bible may be, Psalm 19 ends with a prayer.
“Who can discern their own errors?
Forgive my hidden faults.
Keep your servant also from willful
sins; may they not rule over me.
Then will I be blameless, innocent of great
transgression.
May the words of my mouth and the
meditation of my heart be pleasing in
your sight, O Lord , my Rock and my Redeemer.

Amen.


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PSALM 19
PSALM 19
The heavens declare the glory of God;
the skies proclaim the work of God’s hands.
Day after day they pour forth speech;
night after night they display knowledge.
There is no speech or language where
their voice is not heard.
Their voice goes out into all the earth,
their words to the ends of the world.
In the heavens God has pitched a tent for the sun,
which is like a groom coming forth from his pavilion,
like a champion rejoicing to run his course.
It rises at one end of the heavens and
makes its circuit to the other; nothing is
hidden from its heat.

The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving
the soul. The statutes of the Lord are
trustworthy, making wise the simple.
The precepts of the Lord are right, giving joy to the heart.
The commands of the Lord are radiant, giving light to the eyes.
Awe of the Lord is pure, enduring forever.
The ordinances of the Lord are
sure and altogether righteous.
They are more precious than gold, than lots of pure gold;
they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb.

By those words is your servant warned;
in keeping them there is great reward.

Who can discern their own errors?
Forgive my hidden faults.
Keep your servant also from willful
sins; may they not rule over me.
Then will I be blameless, innocent of great
transgression.

May the words of my mouth and the
meditation of my heart be pleasing in
your sight, O Lord , my Rock and my Redeemer.
               

Regard every living being as you do yourself, harm no one, be kind to all of life, for you are also part of creation.
- From Twitter (@TheGodLight)